There are Messages in Emotions
That ask us to awaken our soul and heal generations of trauma.
My past two short posts have been a lead up to differentiating the content that arises within your emotional experiences. Existential emotions are emotions that many of us do not recognize simply because we tend to get stuck in believing all emotions are situational and solvable by an action step related to the situation.
I’m going to write about how to build awareness, work with, embody, and find healing through existential emotions over the next week or so. But first I want to get into more nuances within your unique emotional experience. This will lead into how to recognize existential emotions and their content as well as how everything relates uniquely to your emotional body. I hope to create an understanding as to what existential emotions are awakening you into.
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Emotions have messages for us. They tell us to engage in relationships or disengage from relationships. They help us decide what is good for our life and what is bad in our life.
Sometimes, though, the messages of emotion can get lost or redirected. It is normal, for example, to over focus an the emotion being about a situation in life that needs to be fixed instead of an emotion that is pleading for us to heal something emotion across generations or lives.
One way to feel into an emotional message is to differentiate the experience itself from the past. For many of us, it is reflexive to get lost in this life and assume that everything we are feeling is in our control to change if we do the right thing or fix ourself to a certain level of perceived perfection.
With existential emotional content, we cannot change the situation to find resolution. We need to go into more awareness - a multidimensional awareness. Some situations will come up over and over again until we do the necessary work of diving in to the deeper pain of our own from past lives and our family’s from ancestors.
Your Experience of Emotions is Unique to You.
Everyone experiences emotions differently. You cannot make someone experience emotions the way you want them to. You shouldn’t make yourself experience emotions differently either. Emotions are messengers. We have something to learn from them.
Differentiating situational emotions from existential emotions is a matter of understanding your own unique relationship to emotions when they arise. If you are a very emotional person and tend to feel primarily one emotion, then feeling that emotion intensely may simply point to a situational emotion. If you are someone who recycles emotions, intense emotion may just lead into a different emotion because your energetic body needs a release (think grief into anger and back to grief again or vice versa). If your go to emotional experience is one of suppression, than any emotion that comes up is going to be felt as intense. You have to know your baseline. Not only with your emotional experience as a whole, but also your indiviudal relationship to each emotion.
If you are someone who does not easily feel emotion, any emotion that makes itself known is going to be uncomfortable. This means that most situations do not elicit emotions and therefore situational emotions are dulled. When an emotion actually arises it is going to be something bigger than normal that stimulates it.
Disease or illness may need to be present for enough awareness to build for an emotion to move. There are places we collect emotion in our bodies. Both recycled and suppressed emotions are going to go into those collection places in the body for storage. These emotions cover over transgenerational trauma and past life wounding. Any pain or disease in a person that either does not feel emotions or does not allow release has more than one type of emotional content. There is content in it that is from this life as well as content in it that is multidimensional.
For people who are comfortable with emotions, there is an ability to be more nuanced in reflecting and understanding the cause of an emotion. A situational emotion will be more obvious. There’s a catch. With comfort in emotions there is more of a potential to get caught in thinking that all emotions are situational. It is here that self reflection may be overly fixated on the self and create a blind spot towards a wider perspective. This is a bit of a trap. Situations in which there is transgenerational trauma or past life wounding may be overlooked or unseen if the role of self is overemphasized. When emotional responses have a sense of being repetitive, unescapable, or unsolvable it is time to explore the content for a connection that is deeper than the situation that is presenting itself.
In all exploration of emotions, remember that we are all on some sort of default continuum depending on the emotion itself and the situation we are experiencing.
Emotions that we tend to relate with easily will need to stimulate us more to get us to want to heal deeper trauma. This means more trouble coming into our lives to get us to understand there is something deeper at play.
Something similar is true for a recycled emotion. The emotional comfort in the recycling will eventually point us towards no longer being able to withstand the emotion or the thoughts we have when we experience the heaviness of the emotion. Fear, despair, or hopelessness will create a desire to look deeper.
Emotion that is primarily suppressed needs to be found. The emotional distance or control needs to be addressed. Then we will have to look into the body (often in the form of disease, stagnation, pain, or recurrent injury) and learn how to listen in order to explore the suppressed emotional content.
Allowing emotional flexibility to become a part of who we are means comfort with all emotions, positive and negative, as well as understanding the comfortable ways we relate to emotions themselves. This includes what is shut down, what is suppressed, what is ignored, what is internalized, and what is projected. Understanding our own unique and complex relationship to the full range of emotions we can feel takes years of tracking the self and tolerating the sensation of emotions in the body.
Emotions and Emotional Reactions Invite us to Go Beyond the Obvious Dimension of the Reality We Live In.
Past Life Trauma
Past life trauma can be harder for some of us to accept and work with, especially if religious beliefs encompass having only one life. If this is the case, consider my using a reference to past life trauma as a lens for communication instead of a challenge of belief. Inside us, our programs tell us we cannot be our fullest selves. We have built in ways that block us from being fully alive. The experiences of upbringing layer onto ways we had already predetermined to shut down our light in order to have a human experience.
The human experience is one of being born pure and perfect with an agenda of loss, separation, and suffering. This agenda has a purpose - to bring about soul healing through choice. Choice is the most powerful tool we have as humans.
Rigid beliefs are the limiting factor that hide us from our own soul. The trauma we experience in this life piggybacks on unresolved trauma we have from past lives. This cycle keeps us from accepting the beauty and perfection of our own light.
A continuous experience of a situation that rebounds into a familiar emotional conclusion points to past life trauma. Often the sense of being trapped or stuck arises in these situations. We can’t get out of the pattern. Nothing we do works. Anything that we feel we cannot escape or have to accept that forces us to shut down a part of our self, that cuts us off from our soul, involves past life trauma. When we become aware of the trap, we need to embrace the ideas we came into this body with, not just the wounding that we experienced once we got here. It is time to acknolwedge the role of past lives in our current life experience.
Transgenerational Trauma
We all have places where our ancestors were traumatized in experiences that they were not able to process emotionally due to circumstances, life’s intensity, or their own trauma. When an ancestor was not able to process a really intense experience, they came to a conclusion about the reality of life. They then wished or cursed this reality on the generations to come without realizing that they might hurt your current experience of life. What was meant as a well meaning multigenerational message became a curse.
War, famine, disease, persecution, abuse, and slavery all created traumatized ancestors who could not possibly survive and feel the depth of their suffering. It is now our job to feel their pain and process it without their lens of hopelessness and despair. Our priviliged lives give them a chance to heal.
The ancestor’s story is important. We need to understand the emotional imprint that their experience has on our own life and psyche. Once the emotional field is entered into, there is an opportunity to communicate with the ancestor and get clear on a compulsion that was sent out to future generations as an attempt to help them avoid pain. When the emotion is easier to face, future generations can process the trauma in a more wholistic way and move on without their ancestor’s limiting belief that deadens life instead of expanding it. It can be amazing to hear the stories of trauma in our ancestry and find the threads of what they suffered and how they connect to our own experience of self restriction in our present life. But as usual there comes a point when we have to go from knowing to feeling in order to bring healing.
When we have trauma in this life that feels greater than it should be, it may be because it is greater than one life’s wounding. Past lives and the voices of our ancestors echo through our experiences and give us answers. They tell us how to shut down or separate from the experience rather than learn from it.
If we choose the comfortable path of shutting down there are two direct consequences. One is that we are going to continue to experience the situation cyclically, and potentially with greater pain and suffering, until we choose to work on our ingrained limiting beliefs. The other is that we are going to create trauma in our children and families by not choosing to heal the ingrained limiting belief. This means unexplored past life trauma will eventually create transgenerational trauma.
Emotional Healing
The repercussions of emotional healing are multidimensional.
When we do authentic in depth work to heal our emotions, we heal ourselves.
When we engage in past life emotional healing, we heal various versions of ourself and give ourself a chance to be more in every life. We engage in karmic healing that invites the soul to expand into more dimensions of light, love, and connection.
When we engage in transgenerational healing, we heal our DNA. Our healing work ripples into mother, daughter, father, brother, grand parents, siblings, and cousins.
The act of taking on emotional healing is often primarily for the self. When we notice the effect this healing has on others though, we are embracing the purpose ingrained in our bones.
When an existential emotion arises, it is going to cause an intense sense of too much, overwhelm, disassociation or disconnect. Holding the existential emotion in the body with any sort of restriction is going to cause problems with feeling the emotion as well as suffering and pain. Existential emotions primarily need to flow out softly, without trying to understand them or think about their cause. They need us to be able to soften and surrender into them so they can uncover the deeper images and beliefs that are held within.
More than any other type of emotion, existential emotions are absolutely not meant to be released alone. We need support to work with existential emotions because their nature is in needing to heal the soul. We rely on midwives or doctors to help us bring our babies into the world. Why would we not rely on someone to heal our soul? I believe that if existential emotions are showing up in life, reaching out to a spiritual midwife is necessary. Someone who is trained to do soul work, transgenerational haunting, or past life trauma release are best equipped to handle the complexity and multidimensional nature of your existential emotions.
If support is not possible, allowing these intense experiences to flow through the body without overthinking and over identifying with them will lead to some sort of release. The idea is to have a softening that flows into connective thoughts over time. We have to let go of the default struggle of thinking through our emotional experience. Existential emotions require that we not overly identify with emotions and act too soon or run default programs that injure the soul. Recognizing and surrendering into the need for multidimensional healing is important.
My next post is going to be about building awareness and working on healing these existential emotions. Paid subscribers will have the opportunity to receive step by step instructions on exploring the process of existential emotional healing.
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