I have felt called to work with the holographic wounding and shadow arising in the world right now. The source point of all this chaos is deeper than many people want to see. Self hatred is ruling the imbalance in the world. Only through extreme rejection of self can we justify hurting and hating. Depending on who we are and how we run ourselves, that rejection turns inward towards the self or expands outward towards others.
Today, I am offering a microcosmic solution. The idea?
Focus on healing your unloved self consciously. Radiate out the possibility of deeper self acceptance. It is not only something we all need, but also that we all deserve.
Eventually in our life we are going to be called to look at that thing we are trying our hardest to fix about ourselves while simultaneously wanting to ignore whatever it is with all of our being.
We all have a place inside us that we believe is broken or inherently flawed.
If you immediately defend yourself when reading that statement…you are in denial of your own shadow. I don’t care how much work you’ve done, how much you have evolved, how deep you know yourself. Eventually you will be ready to face, understand, and accept your unloved self as a permanent aspect of your being that will need attention for as long as you are human.
Anyone who spiritually bypasses or overly fixates on disease and diagnosis is going to fight the need to go into the unloved self. It’s hard to admit that there’s always going to be a spiraling in that as part of the dilemma of being human. It’s also a gift - the paradox and the fight.
When you can work with your unloved self and understand it has value and is giving you something essential to your life and light, the charge you have against it decreases. Instead of feeling hatred, acceptance can arise (over time, be patient). Curiosity can develop. The feelings of shame and guilt and rejection can be ridden through like a storm instead of used as a place to act. Once accepted, clarity and peace become part of our life experience. Our “I am” doesn’t have to push, it can simply flow and accept.
I recognize that this feels like a big ask. My last two posts have talked about how HARD this all can be. There’s a lot of softening, breathing, and not fixing that has to go into this type of deep awakening. The loudest aspects of ego and the undercurrents of fear can actually just BE and not be controlled.
You don’t have to be fixed.
You don’t have to be healed.
You can simply be aware and make choices as you are…a perfectly imperfect and ordinary human.
Conscious Regulation
Here goes. The following video is an explanation of the ideas behind consciously regulating on behalf of another. Conscious regulation is an act of meeting the unloved self in another with a presence that is flowing and open, transforming defense into compassion. The unloved self is by nature dysregulated. The unloved self by nature feeds off of an inability to settle into truth. Simply by allowing the unloved self space to express while still feeling the deep presence of another creates possibility. It bridges our unloved self into the capacity to feel who we are with light.
Next…a chance to experience what conscious regulation looks like and feels like in your system.
